November 30, 2013

Wait, What?!?

So there are times in ones life where you are just getting comfortable.  All of the speed bumps and minor detours seem to be going away and the journey of life seems to be going smooth.  Then all of the sudden something from your past comes around.  Now this can be good sometimes.  I mean there have been times that I bump into someone that I haven't seen in a while and it's like, holy shit...this is awesome.  How have you been?  What's been going on?  And that conversation goes on and on for hours and it just seems to be a good time and moment.  Then there are those times that something happens to cross your path that just sets things off.  When I say sets things off I'm not just talking about making a small ripple, I'm talking about a rouge waive hitting the side of a cruise liner and just sinking it down to Davy Jones Locker.  This is what happened.

So I have this friend that I talk to here and there.  By friend I am referring to a girl that I dated for a little bit a long time back, but our paths never seemed to be going the same direction at the same time.  We always have tried to stay in contact with each other and see each other here and there when the opportunity presents itself.  So this relationship is not a bad one.  Now we sometimes wonder and talk back and forth how our paths never seemed to connect at the right times and reminisce of times past.  Well in this particular occasion, she decides to tell me something that would have been pertinent to know back when we were dating.  But to give you a quick history of our relationship, here we go.  I remember getting a phone call from her while dating and she told me that she had a "big change" happening in her life.  I was happy about this "big change" and at the same time very scared.  Now if you are a guy and get told that a "big change" is happening in your life, I think you know what I am referring to.  Especially when it is coming from the girlfriend/wife.  So back to the story, as time goes on she informs me that this important change is not longer happening.  Sad day.  Then she tells me that she is moving because she can't deal with the stress and needs to get away.  My job at the time didn't allow for much relocation so I was just like "Ok, if you really need to go. I don't want you to."  But that didn't stop her from leaving and so ended our time together.

Now back to the present time.  Talking to her again in one of our weekly check ins, she tells me she has a confession.  I say "Ok, what is it?"  She then informs me that I am going to get mad and if I don't want to talk to her after this she would understand.  Now I'm really curious on what it is.  She then proceeds to tell me "I still had that "big life change when I moved away".  To my instant reply of "Wait, WHAT?"  As the story goes, she moved away because she thought that I didn't want this change and that it would interfere with my life...  Well no shit!!!  But what if I wanted that change in my life?!  So after further talking to her I find out that the "big change" happened and that he was given out to another couple that wanted a "big change" in life but couldn't for some reason make that happen.  So now I am excited, bewildered, dumbfounded and mad all at the same time.  Needless to say, my brain is still asking the question, "Wait, WHAT?!?"