I thought the the United States of America was a place that you are able to think how you want, pray how you want, believe what you want, and to say what you want. Somewhere I must have been given false information.
Growing up I was taught that the United States was founded by people that left England and other European countries to come to a place where they were able to practice religion how they want. They came to this now country to be able to live their own lives and not be told how and when and what they have to do. They wanted to own their own land to be able to produce crops for their own use. I seem to remember that their was once this piece of paper that was written upon and it said something along the lines of we are a free people.
Why is it that in today's version of the United States of America, all of these freedoms that were originally set up have been taken away? I see in the news almost every week that there has been another college group that has been shut down, somebody is having to apologize publicly for something that they have said. And why is this? Do we not have freedom of speech anymore? Are we not allowed to have an opinion that others may not have? If there is a privately owned bakery that doesn't want to make cakes for some gay couples wedding, they have that damn right. So why do those fucking gay pricks get to take that bakery to court and say that they were rejected because of their views?! That is the right of the owner. He can refuse service to anybody. He isn't saying that he won't hire them (which you can't do under equal rights), but you sure can tell someone that you are not going to bake a cake for them because you don't support their cause. There are a million other bakeries that they could go to. If I have an opinion about a different race than mine is perfectly allowable and I am able to publicly say so. Now making threats and or acting out on said race is illegal yes, however saying that a race is ignorant and deserves what they get is my opinion. If it offends you I am not sorry. That is why we live in this country, we have the agency to have an opinion. Don't fucking shut my opinion down because you don't like it, accept it as an opinion and carry the fuck on!!
April 5, 2015
October 23, 2014
Chapter 1
On returning from a 2 year trip to Spain, Nate arrived back in the United States and didn't quit know what to do with himself. First off, everything was so different. He left from a small city that in the suburbs a when he returned that small city wasn't so small anymore. The world moved at a very different pace than over in Spain. He very quickly starting missing the laid back, friendly environment that he was so accustomed to and had to re adapt to the fast pace, not so cordial American life. The other big thing that he was having a hard time with was finding things to do and people to do them with. When he left, so did everyone else it seemed. And when he returned, they were all gone or had gotten married, causing a huge damper in the ability to hang out.
One day as Nate was out shopping, he pulled into the parking lot of a local store and as he was getting out of his car he could not believe what he saw. Getting out of a car was a girl, medium height, slender, dark brown flowing hair with lighter highlights, jeans that held her form oh so beautifully, a sweater that was baggy yet formed just right, and boots that gave her that look that every guy would die for. He recognized the girl, but wasn't for sure if it was who he thought it was. "Could it really be her?" he thought. He tried to follow her into the store but it was around Christmas and as soon as she got into the store, she vanished into the mass of people. "Now what do I do?" Nate thought. He didn't want to miss out on getting reacquainted with his old friend if that was in fact her.
After spending a good part of and hour in the parking lot waiting for the beautiful girl to return to her car, Nate found that he had to leave. In a daring attempt he left a note on her windshield with his name and number. If it was who he thought it was, that was all it needed to say. Sadly Nate left without finding out who this mysterious girl was and hoped that he would hear from her soon.
In the following days, Nate found time to spend with one of his good friends named Matt. Matt did decide to get himself married and all, but he still had time to share with Nate. They would go and play pool, go hiking and golfing, and other such activities. It was nice for Nate to be able to have a friend to do things with again after all.
On one such day that Nate and Matt were playing a few intense games of "9 Ball", Nate received a phone call on his cell phone from a number that he didn't know. It was odd for him to be receiving phone calls in general as not to many people knew his number since he had just returned back from Spain. As Nate stood there looking with a blank stare at his phone, a thought popped into his head. "Was it? Could it be?" he wondered. Is this the phone call that he had been waiting for the past few days? The shock and wonderment almost made him miss the phone call when at the last minute he flipped the phone open and said "This is Nate..."
There was a moment of silence. A moment that Nate could hear his heart beating, slowly, yet seemingly so fast that it was about to jump out of his chest. After a few seconds that felt like an eternity, a very soft, sweat voice on the other end came on and said "Is this the Nate that hopefully still likes Sarah?" His heart stops. Nothing is happening. Everything around him has now ceased to be, and in his brain the explosion of thoughts happen. There are so many things that Nate wants to say, but the only thing that comes out is "Depends on if this is the Sarah that still like Nate?". The reply was simple yet so profound of "I thought you were gone forever!" The conversation was short sadly, but she did ask Nate what he was doing right then. He replied with playing pool with his friend and Sarah knew the location. She said she had to go but would call again shortly.
As Nate went back to playing pool with Matt, his head was filled with happy thoughts and memories of his long lost girlfriend and how awesome it was that it was here that he saw and that she had called. Now all he wanted to do was see her. Nate and Matt kept on playing pool as Nate talked about the phone call. As he was about to take a shot, he looked up at the last moment before striking the ball and saw his Angel. She had shown up to surprise him. And what a surprise it was, because his focus immediately left the game of pool sending the ball flying in her direction.
One day as Nate was out shopping, he pulled into the parking lot of a local store and as he was getting out of his car he could not believe what he saw. Getting out of a car was a girl, medium height, slender, dark brown flowing hair with lighter highlights, jeans that held her form oh so beautifully, a sweater that was baggy yet formed just right, and boots that gave her that look that every guy would die for. He recognized the girl, but wasn't for sure if it was who he thought it was. "Could it really be her?" he thought. He tried to follow her into the store but it was around Christmas and as soon as she got into the store, she vanished into the mass of people. "Now what do I do?" Nate thought. He didn't want to miss out on getting reacquainted with his old friend if that was in fact her.
After spending a good part of and hour in the parking lot waiting for the beautiful girl to return to her car, Nate found that he had to leave. In a daring attempt he left a note on her windshield with his name and number. If it was who he thought it was, that was all it needed to say. Sadly Nate left without finding out who this mysterious girl was and hoped that he would hear from her soon.
In the following days, Nate found time to spend with one of his good friends named Matt. Matt did decide to get himself married and all, but he still had time to share with Nate. They would go and play pool, go hiking and golfing, and other such activities. It was nice for Nate to be able to have a friend to do things with again after all.
On one such day that Nate and Matt were playing a few intense games of "9 Ball", Nate received a phone call on his cell phone from a number that he didn't know. It was odd for him to be receiving phone calls in general as not to many people knew his number since he had just returned back from Spain. As Nate stood there looking with a blank stare at his phone, a thought popped into his head. "Was it? Could it be?" he wondered. Is this the phone call that he had been waiting for the past few days? The shock and wonderment almost made him miss the phone call when at the last minute he flipped the phone open and said "This is Nate..."
There was a moment of silence. A moment that Nate could hear his heart beating, slowly, yet seemingly so fast that it was about to jump out of his chest. After a few seconds that felt like an eternity, a very soft, sweat voice on the other end came on and said "Is this the Nate that hopefully still likes Sarah?" His heart stops. Nothing is happening. Everything around him has now ceased to be, and in his brain the explosion of thoughts happen. There are so many things that Nate wants to say, but the only thing that comes out is "Depends on if this is the Sarah that still like Nate?". The reply was simple yet so profound of "I thought you were gone forever!" The conversation was short sadly, but she did ask Nate what he was doing right then. He replied with playing pool with his friend and Sarah knew the location. She said she had to go but would call again shortly.
As Nate went back to playing pool with Matt, his head was filled with happy thoughts and memories of his long lost girlfriend and how awesome it was that it was here that he saw and that she had called. Now all he wanted to do was see her. Nate and Matt kept on playing pool as Nate talked about the phone call. As he was about to take a shot, he looked up at the last moment before striking the ball and saw his Angel. She had shown up to surprise him. And what a surprise it was, because his focus immediately left the game of pool sending the ball flying in her direction.
September 21, 2014
Words That Get the Best of Us
So I have recently left a high stress job. One in which yelling and being yelled at is common. In fact, the slew of profanities that I used to use on a daily basis was that of a sailor, and it was accepted because that was the environment in which I worked. I have now left that job and entered a new field of work. I deal a lot with people and have to act professional and courteous, which at times is hard enough not having the background that I have, but now that I do have said background it takes extra strength to hold back. That being said, it does surprise me as to how many people get offended by words. They are only words people! If I happen to "fucking" in a sentence, it is not the end of the world I promise. I don't understand how words can make people get the panties in such a tight bunch. How have you survived this long if you get butt hurt over words? It really does amaze me. So for those people that do get offended by words, I have one thing to say to you. Build a big fucking bridge, climb to the top of that mother fucker, and jump your sorry ass off of it so the rest of the world doesn't have to deal with your sorry shit for emotions self!
February 15, 2014
Rules are Rules
So recently I've been having this really fun experience with people that just don't seem to understand rules. Let's say that there is this really big company that has been around for years and years. In this company they pay people to make rules and regulations. Not just make rules for shits and giggles, but so that everybody regardless of how long you have worked for the company or what position you hold all fall under the same rules and regulations. Sounds like a pretty good plan to have in place right? That's what I would think, but for some reason there are people that happen to work for said company that think that the rules can be bent for their benefit. The shitty part about that is that they bend the rules so that they continue to look good even when the shit keeps hitting other people and they have to deal with the bent rules.
This being said, I decided I had had enough of this bull shit. It sure is fun to go and rat out what would be your manager to upper management. It's especially fun when the upper management looks at you because you have all of your ducks in line and tells you that you are right and have every right to go and give your manager an ultimatum. So that is exactly what happened. I gave them the ultimatum and they finally understood that I was not someone that they can just throw to the wind and hope everything ends up all right. I am now in a great position to levy money, time and travel against my management. This is such a great feeling. Now we just wait for a little bit longer to make sure that they do what they said they would or all hell will break lose on them. Because the nice upper management that I talked to, well let's just say they have my back.
In short, do your fucking job the way the rules say to do it and then there will be no problems.
This being said, I decided I had had enough of this bull shit. It sure is fun to go and rat out what would be your manager to upper management. It's especially fun when the upper management looks at you because you have all of your ducks in line and tells you that you are right and have every right to go and give your manager an ultimatum. So that is exactly what happened. I gave them the ultimatum and they finally understood that I was not someone that they can just throw to the wind and hope everything ends up all right. I am now in a great position to levy money, time and travel against my management. This is such a great feeling. Now we just wait for a little bit longer to make sure that they do what they said they would or all hell will break lose on them. Because the nice upper management that I talked to, well let's just say they have my back.
In short, do your fucking job the way the rules say to do it and then there will be no problems.
November 30, 2013
Wait, What?!?
So there are times in ones life where you are just getting comfortable. All of the speed bumps and minor detours seem to be going away and the journey of life seems to be going smooth. Then all of the sudden something from your past comes around. Now this can be good sometimes. I mean there have been times that I bump into someone that I haven't seen in a while and it's like, holy shit...this is awesome. How have you been? What's been going on? And that conversation goes on and on for hours and it just seems to be a good time and moment. Then there are those times that something happens to cross your path that just sets things off. When I say sets things off I'm not just talking about making a small ripple, I'm talking about a rouge waive hitting the side of a cruise liner and just sinking it down to Davy Jones Locker. This is what happened.
So I have this friend that I talk to here and there. By friend I am referring to a girl that I dated for a little bit a long time back, but our paths never seemed to be going the same direction at the same time. We always have tried to stay in contact with each other and see each other here and there when the opportunity presents itself. So this relationship is not a bad one. Now we sometimes wonder and talk back and forth how our paths never seemed to connect at the right times and reminisce of times past. Well in this particular occasion, she decides to tell me something that would have been pertinent to know back when we were dating. But to give you a quick history of our relationship, here we go. I remember getting a phone call from her while dating and she told me that she had a "big change" happening in her life. I was happy about this "big change" and at the same time very scared. Now if you are a guy and get told that a "big change" is happening in your life, I think you know what I am referring to. Especially when it is coming from the girlfriend/wife. So back to the story, as time goes on she informs me that this important change is not longer happening. Sad day. Then she tells me that she is moving because she can't deal with the stress and needs to get away. My job at the time didn't allow for much relocation so I was just like "Ok, if you really need to go. I don't want you to." But that didn't stop her from leaving and so ended our time together.
Now back to the present time. Talking to her again in one of our weekly check ins, she tells me she has a confession. I say "Ok, what is it?" She then informs me that I am going to get mad and if I don't want to talk to her after this she would understand. Now I'm really curious on what it is. She then proceeds to tell me "I still had that "big life change when I moved away". To my instant reply of "Wait, WHAT?" As the story goes, she moved away because she thought that I didn't want this change and that it would interfere with my life... Well no shit!!! But what if I wanted that change in my life?! So after further talking to her I find out that the "big change" happened and that he was given out to another couple that wanted a "big change" in life but couldn't for some reason make that happen. So now I am excited, bewildered, dumbfounded and mad all at the same time. Needless to say, my brain is still asking the question, "Wait, WHAT?!?"
So I have this friend that I talk to here and there. By friend I am referring to a girl that I dated for a little bit a long time back, but our paths never seemed to be going the same direction at the same time. We always have tried to stay in contact with each other and see each other here and there when the opportunity presents itself. So this relationship is not a bad one. Now we sometimes wonder and talk back and forth how our paths never seemed to connect at the right times and reminisce of times past. Well in this particular occasion, she decides to tell me something that would have been pertinent to know back when we were dating. But to give you a quick history of our relationship, here we go. I remember getting a phone call from her while dating and she told me that she had a "big change" happening in her life. I was happy about this "big change" and at the same time very scared. Now if you are a guy and get told that a "big change" is happening in your life, I think you know what I am referring to. Especially when it is coming from the girlfriend/wife. So back to the story, as time goes on she informs me that this important change is not longer happening. Sad day. Then she tells me that she is moving because she can't deal with the stress and needs to get away. My job at the time didn't allow for much relocation so I was just like "Ok, if you really need to go. I don't want you to." But that didn't stop her from leaving and so ended our time together.
Now back to the present time. Talking to her again in one of our weekly check ins, she tells me she has a confession. I say "Ok, what is it?" She then informs me that I am going to get mad and if I don't want to talk to her after this she would understand. Now I'm really curious on what it is. She then proceeds to tell me "I still had that "big life change when I moved away". To my instant reply of "Wait, WHAT?" As the story goes, she moved away because she thought that I didn't want this change and that it would interfere with my life... Well no shit!!! But what if I wanted that change in my life?! So after further talking to her I find out that the "big change" happened and that he was given out to another couple that wanted a "big change" in life but couldn't for some reason make that happen. So now I am excited, bewildered, dumbfounded and mad all at the same time. Needless to say, my brain is still asking the question, "Wait, WHAT?!?"
June 22, 2012
A Change In Life That I Sure Didn't Want
So in choosing a path in life, you make your choice and you run with. Sometimes that choice is a good one and other times...well it isn't. I took a path about a year ago that was an awesome path. I had done everything to prepare myself for what was coming. However the sad part of this little story is doing everything to prepare wasn't enough because my body (in particular my knees) said fuck this and I'm not doing it. So after trying for so long to become an Army Diver, I had to sadly drop out of the class. It was a very sad day and I am still wishing that there was another option. However the options were continue and risk permanently injuring my knees, or take two weeks off and pray that they perfectly heal themselves back to how they were when I was 16. Seeing as the latter is not possible, I elected to drop course before I hurt myself beyond repair. So now the Army has picked my path for the next 3 years of my life. Field Artillery here I come as a Cannon Crewman. Let's see how this pans out....
September 17, 2011
Is This Really The Right Road
How many times in life does this happen. You are happy with your life, everything is going well. Seems like everything is falling into place like it should and then WHAM, everything just feels off. Is it the "grass is always greener on the other side" theory or is just being stuck in limbo between the life you are currently living and the life that you have ahead of you. The life that starts in a few months or days. It's like waiting for a promotion that you are not sure you want. I mean the money will be good, the travel will be awesome, but is it really what is best for the life that you are currently living, for those that are traveling that road of life with you. Sometimes it would be nice to just be able to let it all go and start over. Let everything go and try again. Sometimes it feels that the road that we have chosen for ourselves is not the best road for those that are traveling it with us. What do you do in that situation, let them go? Hope that they are happy on the road with you even though it wasn't what they had planned at all in their life? These are the questions that are hard to talk about with those traveling with you. You want them with you, but are scared that they are giving things up that they want for what, a road that you chose because the life you were living wasn't working out for you. Live with the thoughts that they someday will regret traveling with you or just forget about it all and go with it. I guess we'll just find out.
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